Friday, 26 September 2014

Bathtubs, Drains, & Valuable Lessons



A gurgling sound. Then, dark, grey, murky water, filled with floating bits of kitchen scraps and whatever else might be found in a drain system, bubbled up into the once sparkling white, clean bathtub. In an instant it could quite accurately be described as "filth and squalor". And needless to say, the stench of drain contents is enough to make anyone with functioning olfactories take a swift exit to escape the pollution. I guess I should be glad that it wasn't a drain system in a Korean apartment, where your neighbors' drain is also connected to the pipeline!

Nonetheless, such things in life do not automatically rectify themselves, and someone has to clean the mess, which I proceeded to do. 
Oh the wealth of lessons that a humble, even repulsive drain held!

As I scrubbed at the gunk, it became so representative of much of the stuff with which we fill our minds. Like drains, they become clogged with the filth of worldly pursuits, entertainment, and even seemingly innocent things that take up our time. God longs to quench our thirst with His pure water of life, but we would rather drink at broken cisterns. And like a clogged drain won't let the clean water run down, so we don't even want to accept that refreshing stream. Instead of letting it cleanse us completely, we try to mix it in with our own junk, but it is polluted, its power lost. 

As I thought about crystal clear, pure, refreshing drinking water, it seemed so wonderful in comparison to the nauseating drain water. I wouldn't want even a drop of contaminated water, or a speck of kitchen scraps to come near my drinking water. Yet I can be content so long as there's only a little bit of sin in my life? This can never be! I can't experience the blessing of the water of life God wants to give me if I insist on filling up on junk. He desires all, and the only way for me to have fullness of life is to give Him all. No reservations, not even a speck of dirt sticking to the side of the glass.

To my dismay, when I had the bath nice and clean, I discovered something rather disheartening. Although all the muck was cleaned away, the water wasn't going down properly, and a colony of drowned red ants floated up out of the drain. After getting rid of them, I realized the drain was still blocked, and so tried baking soda and vinegar, before getting out the plunger as a last resort. But, plunge as I might, little bits of rubbish kept floating up, and the drain remained blocked. 

This was when I saw another important lesson. I can clean up the symtoms, and yet the problem still remains, waiting to resurface at the most inopportune times. What I need is a heart transformation. And this is something I cannot do for myself. I can plunge and work as hard as I want to, but, in and of myself, I don't have the resources to solve the problem. Only Jesus can get to that level and change me from within. Only He can scrape away the layers of grime caked on over years of life in a world of sin. Only He can unblock my brain from the mass of garbage I have willfully allowed to clog it. But here's the secret: this is something He wants to do! In fact, the only thing getting in the way of Him performing His incredible operation clean-up is my own stubbornness to keep my dirt. Really? Rejecting God's beautiful, refreshing streams of life-giving water for a stagnant cesspool? How tragic! What a ridiculous trade! Yet how often I make this very fateful exchange. 

I pray that the lesson of the blocked drain will remain fresh in my memory. I pray that God will help me to recognize the true colour of that which this world dishes up as so desirable. That I will see it for what it really is: filth and squalor, repulsive. That I will lose my taste for it. And that I will acquire a love for the heavenly, living water, that quenches all thirst for all other, and springs up into everlasting life. Of that water I want 
to drink deeply.

Thursday, 25 September 2014

God Lent Me His Piano




The beginning of August found me rather dejected, hopeless, wondering what had possessed me to even start this. An out-of-tune piano, final exam one month away, and pieces sounding more like they were falling apart than coming together...

Then more bad news, as if the situation couldn't get worse. 


The tuners finally came that first week of August, and to my dismay, I learned that the church piano would have to be moved out to the hall for an entire month. As a church pianist, the last thing I wanted was to have to hammer out the notes on an old piano with sticking keys. But the examining body uses our church piano, and wanted it perfectly tuned, so the replacement was moved into the church, and the main piano placed in the hall, not to be moved for a month.

Little did I know what a blessing this small inconvenience would prove to be.


Our tuned piano at home was an improvement on what it had been, but it proved impossible to get final exam pieces and even scales up to standard on it. Y
et now a wonderful opportunity afforded itself. I was able to go to the church hall every day, and practice on that beautiful, exam-quality piano. God's piano.

Then it was that it hit me. 

God, the King of the Universe, was willing to have a substandard piano in His house of worship so that a girl could practice for her exam. 

To my shame, I spent more of the month with that piano than I did with the One who so graciously lent it to me. Yet my music fell far short of perfection. And it made me think... Perfection requires agonizing, struggling, striving. And still I cannot attain. 

All my own righteousness is but filthy rags. (Is 64:6) 
Only Christ can perform it in me. 
Despite my unfaithfulness, His love remains unchanged. 
He still calls to my wayward heart. (Jer 31:3) 
He, the Author of music, can compose something perfect, beautiful, out of this discordant note.

And this, this, is what He longs most of all to accomplish.


God lent me His piano.


Will I lend Him my life?

Wednesday, 3 September 2014

For Such A Time

In the midst of crises, God has always had His faithful few. And He calls them to stand. The Esthers, the Daniels, the Josephs.

Desperate times call for desperate measures. And we are living in desperate times. If you don’t believe that, just take a look at the chaotic, messed-up world you live in filled with broken, desperate people. 

From generation to generation we plod on. The cycle: You’re born. Grow up. Try to become someone in this world, or, at the minimum, try to survive. Finally retirement. And then? It’s all gone. A vapour. And to the vast majority, not even forgotten, for they never knew you.

And so a probing question. Is this really what you want? No, really. Do you just want to be another generation in the vast span of years…or do you want to be the ones to see the end of this meaningless round, the end of suffering and woe?

For generations we have battled. We have failed. We have been slaves of sin. And if we continue in the same path, we can with certainty expect the same results. How much longer will we linger to enjoy hollow, imagined pleasures that only leave you empty? What will it take for us to be fitted the society of Heaven?

A radical change, to be sure. No doubt more radical than what I can think of right now. If we want to leave this world, we had better be heading in that direction. In every facet of our lives will be affected. How we dress. What we eat. What we listen to. What we watch. Who we hang out with. What we spend our time on. What occupies our thoughts.

Yes, it is radical. You will look different. You will stand out like a sore thumb. But look at the alternative. Your life will amount to nothing more than a selfish existence, for even our best deeds are selfish if we are not transformed by the Spirit of Christ. It will be but a pile of chaff, or as the Bible says without any attempt to euphemize, a hill of dung. You are lost, and all memory of you soon follows.

The call is for a complete, entire surrender. Maybe we have used these words so often that we have lost their true meaning. But they remain unchanged. You are not your own. You never have been. You only end slavery to Satan by becoming a slave of God.

Yes, the narrow path is by no means an easy one. When Christ Himself suffered, how can we expect a bed of roses? Yet it will be worth it. Infinitely worth it.


The question stands: Will we be the generation?