Tuesday, 20 May 2014

Bethlehem Seminar Blessings

 
The only way I can describe the past three weeks is: life-changing! And this is not merely a figure of speech. I literally can't go back and live life as usual ever again. 

Working with such an amazing, committed team has truly inspired me to work for God. Not only now, but to use the rest of my life, to be spent for Him. 
 
Seeing God working in all sorts of circumstances has been such a precious experience. There were so many amazing  encounters with various people, and though the vast majority didn't come, that makes it no less amazing.

Looking back, the single largest impact that I can see from 7 days of walking through the streets inviting people is the result it has had on my own life. Maybe it was not so much about inviting the people as it was about the way God worked in allowing us to invite them. Maybe there was another purpose. Maybe it was to change me. To instill in me a real love for God's work. And since His ways are so much higher than anything we can imagine, I know that only eternity will tell the full results, and show all the seeds planted. 

Yes, we thought at a time that the whole town would come. But God knew what we could handle. And with the recording, which He made possible, we cannot know this side of Heaven the number of souls that will be reached and lives that will changed!

But to me, by far the greatest influence I can see is that which it has had in my own life, as I learned countless precious lessons. Trust in God, surrender, willingness to be used and spent for Him. I was challenged and stretched, pushed beyond the limits of my comfort zone. 

Now the seminar is over. Reality hits home. Back to the mundane things of  life. But are they, really? The question begs- will I truly live a different life from now on? Is this change going to be practical? Will I take up my duties cheerfully, and am I as willing to serve my family here at home as I am to be working out on the streets? Nothing is neutral in life, nothing insignificant. Every descision, every word, every action, every thought holds weight either for good or for evil. Yes, these "little things" have just as much of a deciding influence as the so-called great descisions. 

As to the answer to these questions? I have but to claim God's promises, He has already made provision. Yes, the choice remains mine. And once again, only time will tell. But I pray for grace to be faithful, that we may meet on that "Beautiful Shore", and marvel throughout eternity at the wondrous love of God in redeeming sinful human beings...



 

Monday, 5 May 2014

To Be Spent

It's not fair. I don't like it. I feel like such an etcetera. And no one really cares anyway. They just use me.

Such was the preoccupation of this modern-day "Jonah" but a few short minutes prior to this.

Why should I care? They don't. Do I look like some commodity or something?



Silence. Then I feel a gentle tug on my heart.


"Isn't this exactly what you prayed for?"


...

Then it hit me, like the force of bright noon-day light when you've just come out from pitch-black darkness.

Yes, this. This is my prayer being answered.

To be spent.